“And they were exceedingly astonished, and said to him, “Then who can be saved?” Jesus looked at them and said, “With man it is impossible, but not with God. For all things are possible with God.” Mark 10:26-27
Imagine you are in your home and start to feel light-headed and nauseous. The concern in your spouse’s eye is evident as she picks up the telephone to call for an ambulance. As you ride in the ambulance to the hospital, you hear the muted words of a paramedic saying to the driver, “You had better step on it,” as your eyelids descend over your consciousness amidst the sensation of increasing speed and the noise of a distant siren.
When you open your eyes, you find yourself lying in a hospital bed within a body that has been transformed into something weak and foreign. Tubes and wires tug at tender skin with the slightest movement. Nurses scurry in and out of the room interrupted only by periods when they poke and prod away your dignity as quickly as it emerges from a groggy past.
You strain to focus on the faces of those assembled around your bed. The recognition of those whom you love slowly seeps through an unexplainable confusion. They are smiling joyfully with faces that bear the fleeting remnants of tears and fatigue. You have no idea as to why they are so joyful.
Five days have passed since your last memories. You are told that you nearly died. You are told you have been through something impossible. You are told that you have experienced a miracle. Yet, you don’t remember anything. All you know is that you are uncomfortable and want to go home. You have no idea how far you have come but you are aware of how far you have to go to get back to the person you last remembered yourself being.
Discouragement descends like a wave despite all those celebrating around you.
This has been my Dad’s experience over the last couple days. I posted in “PRAYER REQUEST – My Dad” and “MY DAD – An Update / Answered Prayers” regarding my Dad’s brush with death. My Dad has been recovering remarkable well. He is out of the hospital and currently at a rehabilitation center to continue his recovery. I know that he is discouraged because he is not where he wants to be. When I first heard that he was discouraged and grumpy about being in the hospital it irritated me. His response seemed so ungrateful given what I know he had been through.
I asked him what was the last thing he remembered. His last memories are of the ambulance ride to the hospital. His negative response was not that surprising when I realized that he did not know what he had been through. He does not remember any of it. Therefore, we have been explaining to him everything that has happened over the last week but I know it all feels so surreal to him. On Sunday, I read to my Mom and Dad the blog posts and many of the prayer-filled comments that were posted. I think that helped. They are deeply appreciative of all the prayers that were offered on behalf of my Dad.
Discouragement is going to be a struggle for my Dad in the coming months as he continues to recover and your continued prayers for him are appreciated. We will continue to remind him of how far he has come rather than the distance he has to go.
I am reminded of our salvation.
Why do we lack joy when Christ has saved us?
Why do we grumble when we are a new creation in Christ?
I think we often fail to live a life of gratitude because we don’t realize how far we have come. Like my Dad, we don’t have a memory of how bad our condition truly was without Christ. Even those who have walked an overtly sinful life before coming to Christ probably don’t have a perfect or complete understanding of the vileness of sin.
I have never seen the glory of God.
I have never physically felt the burning holiness of the great “I AM”.
I have never physically stood in the throne room of God Almighty and seen the pure righteousness of Christ.
I can become discouraged by the persistence of my own sin and the long road of sanctification I know I have ahead of me. I can become impatient and irritated when my life does not work out the way I want it. I can be pessimistic about the circumstances of today.
I fall into these un-joyful traps when I fail to appreciate the gift of my salvation. I was dead in my sin. I was justly condemned to eternal punishment. I don’t have a distinct memory of being spiritually dead, but I believe what the Bible tells me about my fallen sinful condition. My attitude turns to gratitude when I am reminded of how far the grace and mercy of Jesus Christ has brought me.
I have been brought from death to life in Christ Jesus.
I am a new creation in Christ.
The old has passed away and the new has come.
The new is even more miraculous when you are reminded of the old. I cannot help but be joyful when I focus on what God has done for me. I cannot help but be grateful when I consider what my Lord has saved me from.
May we as children of God live in the glorious revelation of the miracle of salvation.
PRAYER: Lord, thank you for saving me. Thank you for giving me eternal life. Thank you for opening my eyes. Forgive me for not appreciating the miracle of my salvation. Forgive me of my ungrateful attitude. Lord, give me the joy of my salvation that washes over my entire life. I pray this in the precious name of your Son, Jesus Christ. Amen.