“Bless the Lord, O my soul, and forget not all his benefits, who forgives all your iniquity, who heals all your diseases, who redeems your life from the pit, who crowns you with steadfast love and mercy, who satisfies you with good so that your youth is renewed like the eagle’s.” Psalm 103:2-5
My mortal body is often one of my most stringent usurpers of my soul’s control. Unfortunately, the whims of my flesh greatly influence my mindfulness of God’s benefits; how He has forgiven my iniquity, how he has healed me from sickness, how He has redeemed my life, how He has crowned me with steadfast love and mercy, how He completely satisfies me with His goodness.
Sleep is a precious commodity. Ask any parent of young children and they will tell you that their one wish is for a complete night’s rest. I no longer have young children who disturb my slumber. As of late, I have a misguided internal clock that is more effective than any wailing infant. I have taken to awaking at 2:30 in the morning, tossing and turning until 4:30, only to have my alarm disrupt my dreams at 5:30. I realize that there are many who struggle with insomnia to a far greater degree than I. I am thankful not to face their struggle.
This morning, I arose not very mindful of the benefits of my Lord. I was far more mindful of the benefits of sleep. It was a prolonged battle between soul and flesh, to drag my reluctant bones to my desk and open the precious words of God.
I know that if I had remained in bed that God would not have loved me any less. I know that I would not have been punished if I had missed this time of meditating on His words. I know that God’s blessings are not contingent upon fulfilling my allotted time of reading my Bible, journaling and prayer. I know that sometimes it might be best to just get the rest.
I also know that this is the most peaceful, refreshing, and renewing part of my day. I set aside this part of my day because I want to. I do not do it because I have to. I do it because as a child of God, I get to.
The battle then is most often with my mortal body. I am very easily inclined to become focused on the condition of my body and allow it to dictate my day. I am reminded of Paul’s admonition, “But I discipline my body and keep it under control….” (1 Cor. 9:27a)
It is when I allow my body undo control that I begin to forget the benefits of my Lord. I begin to think that the comforts that I feel are equal to the benefits of the glory of God. It is a sad state when a discomfort as minor as a little sleeplessness (I cannot even bear to call that suffering) is counted as worth some of the glory that is revealed through God’s word and by His Spirit (Romans 8:18).
So, I arose this morning and was incredibly blessed by the Lord. I have been reminded of His benefits:
How he has forgiven all my iniquity;
How I get to celebrate His mercy and grace this Easter;
How He has blessed me and my family with health;
How He has redeemed my life when I was without a redeemer;
How He has filled my cup to overflowing with His steadfast love and mercy;
How His goodness has made me content with where He has placed me.
My Lord has renewed my soul this morning more than any sleep could do.
The slight glimpse of His spectacular glory was so worth the two hours of sleep that I lost. I look forward to what He has for me tomorrow.
PRAYER: Lord, thank you for your faithfulness. Thank you for that day in the future when you will fully reveal your glory and it will make the sufferings of the world, great and small, so very worth it. Thank you for renewing my soul. Amen
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